Say Hello To My Little Friend!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.  I'm sure some of you are still celebrating.  We are all down for the night and I put the kibosh on the day a little over an hour ago, putting the kids to bed early.  That would be 6pm.  Pretty early!  But, they went for it, so kuddo's.  They get up at 5am no matter what time they go to bed, so off to bed they went.

As much as I love Thanksgiving, I am happy when the day is over, too.  

Say What???  

It's the hubbub.  

I think the hubbub of anything can be exhausting.  No matter what it is.  How fun it is... How tiring it is... No matter how whatever it is.  

This brings me to introducing to you my little friend.  I just recently realized she was my "friend".  She's not a very good friend.  She's really annoying.  She's this weird cartoon creature above.  This is what I envision her to somewhat look like.  She looks kinda weird right?  I can't tell if she's happy, sad, anxious, tired, riled up, what???  She's just neurotic!   

After checking in with some of my favorite authors, in the Personal Growth section of this blog, I realized this weirdo chick was living inside me!!!  And I needed to admit it to myself.  As much as I try to get her out, she just doesn't! And I realize now she's never going to.  I also realize, she comes out in full force when I'm overly stressed, anxious or tired.  

She starts the never ending over analyzing!!!  Or at least gets super loud about it! 

Oh how this chick is annoying!!  I've been going on and on about how I'm learning to Just Be and no matter how many times I tell myself that, she keeps showing up, and never shutting up!!!  What is this lady's problem?? She just won't drop it!!!  

Here's what she's saying to me right now...  

Was I helping too much?

Why did I make too much food?

What are we going to do with all this left over food? 

I need to put this stuff in Tupperware.  It's driving me crazy that it's still in the serving dishes.  

I need to work out. I ate too much.

My stomach hurts.  I feel like a pig.

Were the kids too rowdy today?  Why was I getting annoyed to the point where I wanted them to go to bed at 6pm?!

Well, they were crying a lot...  So, I'll justify it by saying they were tired and it's not just me who's tired.

The cat is really driving me crazy right now.  Is this cat going to stare at me all night? 

Are those dogs outside ever going to stop barking?

Do we have 12 dogs parking in the neighborhood right now?  It sounds like 12.

Should I have drove around to see more family.  Why didn't I do that this year?  It's so exhausting, though.

The house is really messy.  All this clutter is driving me nuts. 

Ughhh, this stupid lady will not shut up!!!  

We had a fantastic day.  I know we did.  Why is this dumb lady trying to ruin my day?!!!  

She's crazy!!!  I've had people tell me that I'm being crazy before and now I fully realize it's this lady that's stuck in my head and will not leave.  She's crazy, not me!  

My husband say's "Duh!!!  You are just now realizing this!?!" I'm glad he could see the light before me. 

So, I'm upstairs fully realizing that yes, this lady is crazy! And yes, she is not me. And yes she is trying to ruin my day!!!!  She's trying to make me think things are different than I saw them to be just because I'm tired.  It's OK to be tired at 6pm and want to turn the day off.  Even if it is Thanksgiving.  Just because red-head cartoon lady thinks it's not, doesn't make it wrong. (Sorry red heads, she's just how invasion my crazy lady to be.  Maybe yours is blonde ;)

I don't need to plan what I'm going to do tomorrow, right now!!  I don't need to worry that the house looks like a pig stye right now!!  I don't need to worry that the cat is going to stare me down and claw my eyes out while I'm sleeping, RIGHT NOW!  All just because this dumb lady inside my head thinks I need to.  

Even if I don't do this stuff, because I don't feel like it, this dumb lady thinks I need to worry about the fact that I'm not doing it.  She thinks I need to worry about the fact that they sky is blue!  You name it and she's in full force to ensure I worry about it!!! 

Goodnight little friend!!!  I know what you're doing and you won't win!!! 

Picture your little friend.  

Is she related to mine?!  I think they mass produce and like to inhabit people who worry too much!!!  

What should I call her?  

Geese, she's even driving me insane right now because she wants me to think of a good name for her! 

Too bad lady!  You'll get one when I'm ready to give you one and it's not right now.  I'm going to bed even though it's 8:30. You're driving me nuts!

  She's mad now and obviously throwing a temper tantrum to get her way!  Too bad lady!  I already have two little ones in the house that like to throw temper tantrums.  I don't need to listen to yours.  See you tomorrow!